Wednesday!!!!

Whew! what a day! And a pool party to end it all! I was sooooo good with my eating I surprised myself! I mentally wrestled with myself over some homemade chocolate chip cookies that I wanted, but I won! (I didn't eat any!!) Hard to keep the eyes open tonight....
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I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

I completed the pyramid with 1.37 minutes to spare!!!!! Yes, I am dripping wet! Yes! I am super pumped!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOO WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
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Sunday 6/20/10

I believe we all have much more power than we realize...and we are the ones in the way! I believe I am an evolving being, ever growing and changing, as long as I keep my mind open! I am strong in my religion, and believe in Heavenly Father and in the atoning sacrifice of Jesus Christ, and his perfect example, which if followed will help us return to our home with Heavenly Father. I believe that I am not hiding in my religion as a protection, but have tried and tested it, getting answers to my prayers, and feeling spiritual inspiration and peace. These affirm the truth to me. I have worked it and seen results. Now this is what I must do physically! For some strange long-standing reason, I have given up on myself too easily. I am sure it is a multilayer-ed issue! I have a black lab pup, about 10 months old, and when we take her to the dog park, she rolls on her back in the submissive mode.....it annoys the heck out of me! Part of the reason it annoys me, is it reminds me of how I have acted for years! Please like me....don't be angry....smile all the time....make them laugh..... don't kill me! That is the me I am trying not to be anymore. It is a hard habit to break! I have one dialogue going on in my head and another mask on my face! Well, those that know me know I can't hide my real feelings...they say it is written all over my face...WELL THEN WHY NOT BE TRUTHFUL? Hmmmmm?
The realization came to me recently that my weight problem is based not only on the fact that I have used food as an emotional escape, but that being overweight has provided a level of safety for me. Years ago, as a 5"1, curvaceous young lady, I had a lot of unwanted attention, and was a very frightened, brightly blushing girl. Once I met a huge protector, who I married, I still had the attention when he wasn't around, but once I gained weight....the scary noises stopped! The whistles, leering smiles, fresh comments...all went away, except for times when I would start losing weight again.... Much better (safer) to eat and keep the weight! But that is not my belief NOW! I am a mature woman and know I can not let fears run my life. I know I can get fit and take defensive courses, or martial arts classes which will help me to be more confident. There are no more excuses. It just takes application and the proof will show up...maybe not as fast as I'd like (kind of like the answers to some prayers!) but if I focus, work and stay on track I know I will achieve my goal.
Even if I have given up on myself at times, I never give up hope! Thanks Dax for your inspiration!
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Another exciting Saturday!

Plenty of hard work, and good eating today! Got a nap, too! Went shopping and bought nice fresh veggies to eat and strawberries for Fathers Day. I will have plain strawberries for dessert, but the guys will be having a strawberry and whipped cream laden cake for dessert! My daughter in law, who is 8 months pregnant, planned the meal...hamburgers, potato salad, and I am doing the corn on the cob, and the dessert! I will also have a green salad, since I won't be having the potato salad! It will be great to all get together! Maybe we can talk instead of just eat, right? LOL!
I bought some rice chips earlier today, and enjoyed munching on about 12 of them. I felt comfortable and stopped eating instead of finishing off the bag! Drank less water than usual, but will catch up...maybe...
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Interesting....

Yesterday, I wrote a post called Thursday...but where did it go? I must have not hit publish post! Yesterday I was complaining of not feeling good....having pain in my knees and feet, and it taking so long to get off the floor between exercises! I was tired on Thursday and dragging at work by 12 noon! It went downhill from there! I was not happy...but not discouraged.
On Friday I decided to get up and do some of the exercises early, instead of leaving it all for the end of the day.....MUCH BETTER! Friday I did my weigh in and was pleased at 211.6 lbs that I am still going in the correct direction! Not bad with a start weight of 219. I don't physically feel that much difference. Need to hang in there much longer to see the rewards!!! Friday was a crazy day at work, too! Our boss had a pizza party for the employees! No, I didn't eat any! They had a lovely baked tilapia with spinach and a side of fresh green beans, broccoli, carrots mixture in the cafeteria!
We were also having a surprise party for the boss.... (customer service award) and someone got a huge 2 layer, double size cake with sugar frosting vs whipped cream (so, I'm told) and made punch.... I walked into the room and left and got myself a large cup of water, so I wouldn't feel deprived... When I returned, I looked around and felt like sugar was dripping off the walls, and lingering in the air!!! No interest in it at all! I felt rather sickened by the sight. I was thinking how this is the department of endocrinology and it looks like a poor example!
My husband wanted Chinese for dinner, and I chose a spicy shrimp dish with veggies, and ate that over the usual breaded sesame chicken or general tsao chicken! I really feel good about that!
I get to see my new grandchild next weekend in Maryland, and I now have every expectation of being under 210! I am not going to push the number, but I am going to work harder this week to get to a number that pleases me...more.
Well, good night for now! Catch you tomorrow!
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Wonderful Wednesday!

Another good day! Did some walking at lunch, ate well, did OK with my pyramid (not as good as yesterday!) Still happy with the system!
Tired!!!!!
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Terrific Tuesday!!!!!

I've always wondered how my eldest son could be so "addicted" to exercise.... he works out daily, and is superfit! (He runs a martial arts school and physical fitness is his passion.) I think I am getting it! I love the feeling of the sweat dripping off my face, and knowing I have worked hard! I don't think about anything else during the workout....just totally focused on what I am doing at the time. Today was a terrific day! I ate well, I walked during lunch, the weather was sunny and in the 80's! I even went further along my progression on the pyramid! I am sure to finish it by Friday! I am sooooo excited! Off to run the dog outside, and then take a shower!
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